somewhere along the way...

 

the path isn't always clear these days...

I alternate between embracing a wandering spirit

and needing a map for the road ahead...

 

 

what is clear, however,

is that the change from working-to-retirement hasn't changed my need

to feel productive and impactful. 

so the habitual overworking that I blamed on my job

still haunts me in this after-life :)

come to find out, it wasn't lifetouch's fault.

it was me all along

 

 

kinda makes me wonder if the cats that show up on my deck,

no matter where I live,

are a result of my own behavior too...

Batman the catman, on the cape cod deck, is not the problem.

turns out, I am doing this stuff to myself...

 

 

so i got some learning to do.

i think i'm going to stop trying to fill the minutes with checkmarks

on some mental to-do list,

and instead, let go for a little while.

 

i will let go of the new habit of trying to do everything i missed out on

when i was working 70+ hrs a week for 30+ years.

 

i don't have to decorate the house for fall just because i can.

(even though that was good, good times)

i don't have to refinish every old piece of furniture,

or rake every leaf,

or suck up every dust bunny with my new little dustbuster.

i don't have to do every creativeLive class,

or shoot every word-of-the day,

or post new stuff on my photography pages.

unless i want to.

 

for the time being,

i am just going to wander aimlessly around my life

and enjoy the little things...

 

 

 

 

 

 

this sign says it all...

no need to know where i am...

no need to know where i am going...