my little yellaboy...

I am beyond sad.

my last rescue, yellaboy, is back outside. 

(you can see his original story HERE:

 http://memaries.blogspot.com/2012/11/yellow-boy-saga.html )

 

he and his brothers opened the sliding glass door on sunday night.

I got everyone back inside but him. he got scared and ran.

 

we are at cape cod.

I finally managed to get him to the cape on Friday.

we spent a weekend, cuddling and loving each other.

on sunday, I was painting furniture in the garage, came in to wash the brushes

and saw the cats outside through the kitchen window.

 

all hell broke loose and nothing will ever be the same.

 

I have spent the last 60 hrs trying to find him. 

now I need him to find me.

if a boy could feel love in the air, and follow it home, I will see him again.

if that doesn't happen, I have to believe that the love we shared was enough for a lifetime.

it was just that BIG.

I took a million iPhone pics of he and I together

but nothing ever captured the way it felt. 

but this one comes close -

yellaboy, please come home.

I miss you beyond words and

love you bigger than the sky.

be good, be safe and come home soon.

 

asking for prayers for his safe return...

lazy days of summer...

 

the last summer i had off was in the seventies,

probably 1972.

 

so this first summer of retirement,

i want to soak it all in, every single bit of it.

 i hope to read a lot,

garden if i feel like it,

ride my red bike,

see some sunrises and sunsets,

eat ice cream twists,

spend time with family and friends,

putz until i don't feel like putzing anymore,

walk in the rain,

paint some pictures,

shoot some pictures,

and stop doing any or all of the above when i want to stop...

 

 

 

i want this summer to teach me the lesson of relaxation.

 

i want to let go of the pile of projects

and let go of the to-do list on the chalkboard in the kitchen.

 

i am thinking i might even play with recipes (what???),

feed myself a meal i made

and drink some wine instead of beer :)

or maybe no. 

not committing just yet...

:)

 

 

 i am going to revisit some old memories

and make some new ones...

i will think back to the summers when i knew how to relax

and follow the lead of the child that i was...

 

 

i want to embrace every bit of it - the rain, the heat,

the flowers, the friends, the travel, the food,

the fun :)

 

 

and at the end of it all,

i want to remember the little moments.

i want the gift of noticing

the little things

and reveling in the ordinary lazy days of summer

to grow into 

the big things...

 

soft peace in my soul

and

big love in my heart