the path isn't always clear these days...
I alternate between embracing a wandering spirit
and needing a map for the road ahead...
what is clear, however,
is that the change from working-to-retirement hasn't changed my need
to feel productive and impactful.
so the habitual overworking that I blamed on my job
still haunts me in this after-life :)
come to find out, it wasn't lifetouch's fault.
it was me all along
kinda makes me wonder if the cats that show up on my deck,
no matter where I live,
are a result of my own behavior too...
Batman the catman, on the cape cod deck, is not the problem.
turns out, I am doing this stuff to myself...
so i got some learning to do.
i think i'm going to stop trying to fill the minutes with checkmarks
on some mental to-do list,
and instead, let go for a little while.
i will let go of the new habit of trying to do everything i missed out on
when i was working 70+ hrs a week for 30+ years.
i don't have to decorate the house for fall just because i can.
(even though that was good, good times)
i don't have to refinish every old piece of furniture,
or rake every leaf,
or suck up every dust bunny with my new little dustbuster.
i don't have to do every creativeLive class,
or shoot every word-of-the day,
or post new stuff on my photography pages.
unless i want to.
for the time being,
i am just going to wander aimlessly around my life
and enjoy the little things...
this sign says it all...
no need to know where i am...
no need to know where i am going...