Saturday, October 26, 2013

somewhere along the way...

the path isn't always clear these days...

I alternate between embracing a wandering spirit
and needing a map for the road ahead...
what is clear, however,
is that the change from working-to-retirement hasn't changed my need
to feel productive and impactful. 
so the habitual overworking that I blamed on my job
still haunts me in this after-life :)
come to find out, it wasn't lifetouch's fault.
it was me all along
kinda makes me wonder if the cats that show up on my deck,
no matter where I live,
are a result of my own behavior too...
Batman the catman, on the cape cod deck, is not the problem.
turns out, I am doing this stuff to myself...
so i got some learning to do.
i think i'm going to stop trying to fill the minutes with checkmarks
on some mental to-do list,
and instead, let go for a little while.
i will let go of the new habit of trying to do everything i missed out on
when i was working 70+ hrs a week for 30+ years.
i don't have to decorate the house for fall just because i can.
(even though that was good, good times)
i don't have to refinish every old piece of furniture,
or rake every leaf,
or suck up every dust bunny with my new little dustbuster.
i don't have to do every creativeLive class,
or shoot every word-of-the day,
or post new stuff on my photography pages.
unless i want to.
for the time being,
i am just going to wander aimlessly around my life
and enjoy the little things...

this sign says it all...
no need to know where i am...
no need to know where i am going...


  1. I can so relate to this comment "I alternate between embracing a wandering spirit and needing a map for the road ahead..." Retirement years are interesting in figuring out just where we are going to land....

    I think you have a good plan to just "be" for awhile....I image you will have the clarity you need when the time comes. That's what I am hoping for myself....

    These shots are just awesome....I got a feeling you are going to be spending lots of time behind that lens...

    1. thanks Nancy! hope that you find your 'map' and that we both get comfortable with just 'being' :)