Thursday, October 31, 2013

calendars for 2014...

finally :)
I pulled together two different calendars for 2014, and posted them on my etsy shop. 
being easily distracted, I had a hard time staying focused on the actual calendar I was working on. 
 instead, I found myself thinking - oh wait, what about a barn calendar? or a bird calendar. or windows.
in the end, I did these...
this one is Nature:
and this one is Cape Light...

if you are interested in them, they are available here:
thanks so much for visiting!

Tuesday, October 29, 2013


watery softness...
enhanced with Kim Klassen's 'heartbeat' texture
and Pioneer Woman's actions...

Saturday, October 26, 2013

somewhere along the way...

the path isn't always clear these days...

I alternate between embracing a wandering spirit
and needing a map for the road ahead...
what is clear, however,
is that the change from working-to-retirement hasn't changed my need
to feel productive and impactful. 
so the habitual overworking that I blamed on my job
still haunts me in this after-life :)
come to find out, it wasn't lifetouch's fault.
it was me all along
kinda makes me wonder if the cats that show up on my deck,
no matter where I live,
are a result of my own behavior too...
Batman the catman, on the cape cod deck, is not the problem.
turns out, I am doing this stuff to myself...
so i got some learning to do.
i think i'm going to stop trying to fill the minutes with checkmarks
on some mental to-do list,
and instead, let go for a little while.
i will let go of the new habit of trying to do everything i missed out on
when i was working 70+ hrs a week for 30+ years.
i don't have to decorate the house for fall just because i can.
(even though that was good, good times)
i don't have to refinish every old piece of furniture,
or rake every leaf,
or suck up every dust bunny with my new little dustbuster.
i don't have to do every creativeLive class,
or shoot every word-of-the day,
or post new stuff on my photography pages.
unless i want to.
for the time being,
i am just going to wander aimlessly around my life
and enjoy the little things...

this sign says it all...
no need to know where i am...
no need to know where i am going...

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

fall and nature . . .

when I think of fall, it is all about nature.
fashion people think sweaters and boots,
cooks think about soups and pot roast...
I always think flowers, leaves, birds, trees...


Tuesday, October 15, 2013

i took a break...

I am not sure why I took a break.
I am not even sure what I took a break from, or what I did on my 'break'.
but I definitely was gone a bit.
spring and summer were busy and we loved it. 
retirement was confusing but enjoyable.
September was more painful, for sure. 
September actually hurt. 
my brother in law moved in with us, which was rough on everyone. 
he didn't want to be here, we preferred our lives as they had been,
but he needed help and we all knew it.
my brother and his wife decided to move away, far away...
all the way from their maine/cape cod homes in the northeast USA to southern California.
it's good for them but sad for me...
they were a big part of our cape cod lifestyle
and we missed them long before they actually left.
it was a lonely time.
I have a hard time looking at the pictures I took because I was so profoundly lonely.
but October has been better.
my brother in law has found some housing back in NY where he wants to live.
my brother has moved on but I have traded sadness for gratitude.
I am lucky to have had a few years of hanging out together at the cape;
it's more than I would have had, if we hadn't bought a house at the cape too.
so my heart is healing.
joey and I have been able to spend some time enjoying autumn together.
we lost us-time in September and it felt like we lost everything.
but as leaves fall and the outside world changes,
so does our inside world.
and we will find a beauty in the new season too,
as long as we're together...